Nancy, I know that you've been through this before but that doesn't help with the raw grief when they leave. It was the nothingness of the surrounding space and the silence that hit me so hard and it took me a while to stop replaying every little detail of her last day and moments. What did help a little bit was writing out the details of everything that had happened from the minute she starting limping. It also helped me release a lot of anger I felt toward the people that I couldn't help blaming. Spikey will be dearly missed by us, too. Cathy
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